It Goes On

You keep your options open but all I have in mind is you. All I can do now is let time take me to a place where I belong. Someplace where someone won’t give up on me regardless of how many walls I build up because they somehow see the value in me. Someday..someone will be there. Till then I will always still be thinking about you.

Never settle. When it comes to relationships you should never settle. Period. Why you ask? It is just like picking a passion you want to do for the rest of your life. You don’t just simply settle. Yes, times are rough but really when is it not? It’s better to start pursuing your passion now than hold it off for the future when times might get even harder. Love what you do and do what you love.
The idea of relationships and passion are interrelated, you are spending the rest of life with this other person so shortcuts won’t suffice. Time, persistence, patience, love and many failures is the ultimate recipe to success.

That’s why you deserve what’s best out there, we all do.

“And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.”  -Steve Jobs

I’ve been questioning this for years..what am I doing here for? What’s my purpose?
Everywhere I look people are settling for what they can get. Students are switching majors and losing interest in their future goals. Does this happen all the time? Did the previous generations had to go through the same thought processes?

Grow up. School. University/College. Work. Get married. Work until death.

I highly believe there is much more out there than just work. Life is short but also long depending on how you look at it. How frustrating the search for the ‘love what you do, do what you love’ thing is..

I always keep people at a distance even the ones who I consider as my closest friends and family members. This is probably one of reasons why I lose friends easily or have trouble creating deep relationships with acquaintances. They are not quite strangers and not really friends because there never is a sort of growth in the relations. I find others more interesting than I find myself. Most of my relationships are therefore usually one-sided but I don’t mind. Kill people with kindness.
I am cautious about who I associate myself with because I have been hurt before and I have learned to trust very few individuals.
I am just afraid to let people know the real me, insecurities, fears, personality, all of me. I am terrified that they wouldn’t like what they see. Maybe I am just so used to be alone that the thought of being attached to someone is hard to digest.

Yolo has become the modern day catch phrase of Carpe Diem.

I just want to find something I can put all my heart and soul into without feeling like I’m trying to impress someone.

Sometimes you meet the right person for you but the timing just isn’t in sync. I’m young and have my whole life ahead of me and I am not whole yet so jumping into a relationship when I still need to work on myself is not going to help. Two people who are not ready for the trials and tribulations of a relationship are only going to suffer. Sure, there may be many moments of lovey dovey great times with each other but the fact is that they are blinded by an artificial love. It’s not love, it’s an unhealthy relationship.

I’m focusing on myself right now, my career, my education and future. A relationship is secondary at the moment. It’s not a priority for me as of now, if it ever were to happen suddenly then it’ll be an extra benefit to my life but I am not going to go desperately looking for it. Neither should you until you are intuitively sure that you are ready. Find yourself first then share it with whoever shows up knocking at your door.